Nostalgia

Nostalgia

I often thought what I would be

To find someone with whom I'm free

To share my joys, my hurts, my pains

A friend in sunshine, in pouring rain

Not judgmental at my shame,

Dependable time and time again

Then I soon woke up only to find

There's no rest for my weary mind

For what I hope and long for 

Is just a friend to love me more

Still as I look back longing for what was

Heart yearning yet regretting paths chosen 

It's okay to long for what could've been 

But better to look for, to do much, that's not yet.

To take hold of substance not seen

I was curious when I was young

Basking and playing in the sun of my youth

My innocence was, oh such fun

If I could have those days my friend 

I would gladly kiss them again and again

Life has thought me of its fragilty 

To walk in it like glass, to cherish it as broken 

Those days of old I was not told

That though so young, I would get old

For time has taught me what no one can

Living is only a short lifespan

To make the most of it is my purpose

My only goal, my only focus 

The years lived can never be as the one now live

For all I have is this moment in time 

Fulfilling my purpose, my commission, my mission

While grasping for a meaning that's mine

This longing, this hope, this essence 

Will always be my heart's desire

To give it my very best shot